When Life Has Got You Thinking

Do you ever have a moment where you think about where you were a year ago or who you talked all the time in the past?

In the past couple of months, I personally have had somethings happen that really made me think about life and relationships, romantic and not. The reason I think about this now, is because in the last couple of hours today I had yet another thing happen that made me do so. I am fairly sure that everyone out there has at least had one person in their lives that played a major role one moment, and the next moment they were completely gone. This happens, and it is a normal part of growing up. Friend groups change because the people in them change. However, looking back, it blows my mind because in that moment, that person (or people) is your everything. They are the first person you think of when you need help or just need to talk. I have had a few people in my life who were like this. But now, those people are gone. Luckily, I have a new person who is my best friend and second half. But then I think about the people before and I can't help but wonder, is this just a never ending cycle, will history just repeat itself? Honestly, the person who is my best friend now, I truly feel that we will be in each others lives forever. Yes, I know that sounds cheesy, but because of the past, I have learned what a true friend looks like and what is important.

The thing is, can forevers really happen?

I sure hope so.

The future is so unknown that all you can do is just enjoy today.

It is still unfathomable to me that one second you can be so close to someone and the next second it is like you never even knew each other? You can think you know every detail about someone but actually know nothing about them at all. This is kind of the same about life in general, you can know exactly where your life is headed one moment but then all of a sudden have no clue or have a whole new world open up to you. This happened to me half way through last semester. I thought I was heading down one path but then I was honest with myself about one small thing, and my world just exploded (in a good way). I have never been so excited for the unknown and pure possibilities. I have always been a person that needs to know exactly what is happening next. But for once in my life, I am okay with having just  a blank canvas in which I slowly get to add things onto in order to create my personal masterpiece 70 years down the road. It truly is the journey not the destination. I can't wait to look back when I'm old and see everything I have been through, all the amazing things I have done, people I have met, and place I have been. I have a feeling it will be a breathtaking moment like watching the sun set over the Cascade mountains.